little stars

we are like those stars that shined a very long time ago, only to be seen today. in the night, you see those twinkle twinkle little stars - they were shining thousands of years ago, and it is only today that we see that old light.
distance does wonders. in time, things fade - and in distance, things fade. those little stars are actually big balls of wondrous fire, like a dragon breathing, great and majestically glorious. and we only see a little twinkle.
i can't help but feel like that is what we are like. stars shining today only to be noticed in who knows how long, and this uncertainty hurts the best of us. i can't tell how many times i've heard a sermon talking about how in the end, on judgment day, everyone will get what they deserve. so we shine bright, with acts of kindness and love or hate and malice, only to be revealed on that great day. only God can judge us.
and distance: we cannot understand the importance of people until we know them. avoid gossiping about someone you do not know. every good thing they do is only a twinkle to you. but give your heart to someone, in intimacy, and you will find them as hot and luminous as the morning star.

perspective is a curious thing. there are facts and then there are the subjective experiences of them. and who is to say which experience is wrong? if john dies and decides to be a donor, giving his heart to a little girl, and the little girl survives, how happy would the little girl's family be? now, what if that heart went to someone else? an act of sacrifice can be seen as beautiful, and at worst, as a slap in the face. but why the sudden change? distance. how close are we? how involved are we? why do we praise someone or reward someone when it is so closely related to us? selfishness? (nothing wrong with selfishness, just me trying to find answers) i'm going to make an argument for selfishness in a second. and so we are like stars, who influence those closest to us most, and who often shine now for an eternity later.

what is so wrong about being selfish? i think God designed us this way to make sure we get what is the best for ourselves. that makes perfect sense of the relationship between Creator and created! why give us free will? because God doesn't want zombies to love him. then why create selfish beings? in hopes that they will understand that the best thing for themselves is God. we should be selfish for God's attention. i think that is why biologically we are social animals. because it is good to be social. it is good to be loved and love. and there is nobody or nothing that is more worthy of our love, and nobody or nothing that loves holier, and nobody or nothing as interesting and fun, as God.

we label emotions as bad or good but are they really?
its situations, no? hate. love. jealousy.
the only one i can't imagine being "good" is shame. but then, sometimes we call shame humility.