today

frustrated. hot. tired. sleepy. eyes rolling back. sun in my eyes. opening the door to my balcony. feeling the breeze. going to sleep. warm body. my arms and face still feel the cool breeze. hot and cold i guess. 8:20. costco's pizza, cheap hotdogs. driving. having aim convos.

i just listed things until i found something i wanted to write about. i hate having legitimate convos, fun ones, deep ones, any really, on aim. i feel like im cheating myself out of a relationship. nothing but effort. but in real life, it's usually smooth. much more fun. ugh. aim no such thing as awkward silences, cause people go away for whatever, people don't respond because they're busy, etc. in real life, awkward silences are very possible. it keeps you engaged. usually. sometimes i completely just zone out. then i feel bad and get myself engaged:)

want to go eat? where you is? you came home early.i want to go to a park and go to sleep there. live the rest of our lives, but not together. awkward conversation asking josh to eat. should have asked alice. sleeping, dreaming, i remember i woke up happy. damn am i pissed rite now.