10 wants and 10 more

I want to live like i dont need to defend myself
...like i am free
...like i can make a difference
...like i can get better
...like i have to read
...like i have to love
...like i have a direction
...like i have different clauses and phrases coming out of me
...like i have vocab words flowing through me
...like i don't have time for cliches

1. pride
2. Jesus
3. hope - how do i know when i am looking at the world as it is?
4.that's what you're doing now...
5. brothers k. is waiting for you
6. God has only been waiting for eternity...
7. Jesus
8. do some exercises then... start editing your work
9. gruber's is staring at me
10. think for yourself.


The last,or maybe the first, because it has been so long since the previous ones i have forgotten what may be, waves of nostalgia sinks me to new depths of humanhood. How fragile i am. so many wants and desires - three ways to look at it: surrender, work, or forget. Why capitulate if i, bought with blood, can survive, keep moving?I laugh - why would i want to strive for a "goal" that old age would hand me freely? and now left with work. 

weird comma placements, lots of separation between verbs and their nouns...