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if you want to be pessimistic, go ahead. take the easy way out. see the world for where it is headed.
or we can be optimistic and happy and even though it's harder, we could celebrate life for where we're taking it back.

tonight, i guess i have to settle the question in my head. what is friendship? how does it change, from person to person, depending on the age, etc. what do i want from it, what do i give to it.

today, i complained to scarlet about missing something that i had since seventh grade. especially after senior year, i have felt the emptiness. i was like a stomach that was too used to being overfed, and now that there is nothing left, i finally realize what a blessing i have.

thinking back at a quote - we have friends for a reason... maybe it's time to revisit some that have left.